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Before the exams were over all I could think about was, all the unlimited amount of gaming time I’m going to have, the lists of mental notes I had taken of all the things I’m going to do but as soon as the exams were over we hit the pub in true student fashion got drunk out of my face and got a lift back home. Sounds all good right? But when I woke up the following morning I felt a sudden ‘nothingness’. I had no idea on what to do with my self. After months of dissertation writing, pathology, haematology and biochemistry I had nothing to do! I was, no scratch that, I am still lost on what to do with my self.
I’m on my way home from a ‘employment fair’ on this wonderful summers day but I can not help feel lost, all the stands wanted corporate masterminds or ‘motivated’ sales persons. I just nodded my head as they kept saying how I’m meant to be good at selling things or how well I can speak on the phone or how much of a people person I am (what the fuck does that even mean!)
Just put me in a lab and give me a tittle to work on, trust me I would work wonders in that place! I’ll stay there day and night and read and re-read all the literature out there I will become a member of the field and contribute all I can with what I have! I’m not asking for shot loads of money, I’ll be happy living of pasta and sandwiches. I just want to be apart of a laboratory!
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The St johns training kicked in at the right moment, I was suddenly the centre of attention in this fully packed train carriage, people were trying to help me in any way possible offering water and support. The gentlemen blacked out for a second and started fall but he actually woke back up on the way down, the masses of people around him actually formed a area were he can land on with out getting hurt it was a funny sight, I was the first person to get down and try to understand what happened, no per existing conditions no hear problems and suffering from the flu. I I assumed his blood pressure drop. I have seen it happen to a few people
before. Next stop he got off and said he wanted to sit down and that he was fine I insisted on called a ambulance but he refused. My work was done! -
It’s my birthday today :), at midnight I got 3 calls. One was from Cansu and her mates from Birmingham they sang happy birthday to me :) which made me feel so great :) 2nd was from a privet number this girl sounded very young maybe like 18, I’m glad she remembered my birthday but they wont won’t tell me who she was, it was a very brief conversation as when she didn’t tell me I hung up lol but I can guess I think :) and the final caller was Serpil, this new girl I met over the internet, never met her before and lately we have become quite close :) constantly texting each other but she lives in Croydon, an hour train ride away, I’m planning in making that trip :). As a birthday present to me she sent me nude pictures of her, my god that body of hers! As for the rest of my bday I’m going to sleep though it! This week was so busy and I got maybe 20 hours of sleep from the whole thing! Must go and sleep now :)
Ps the birthday messages are coming in still it’s been 31 so far! I feel so special :)
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Standing in the back of this crowd of Turkish people listening to this popular song which is with the genre ‘rock’ I noticed one thing. I do not belong here… I see all these people dancing which includes this elderly man too ( probably the oldest man here) I feel noting at all to this music. All I can think about is how they could of added a rift in there somewhere and yet the way I dress is exactly the same as all of the blokes. Is there something wrong with me? Have my own people left me? Or have I become so different that I no longer enjoy there company? I even have a few relatives here and there actions do noting but make me hate them a little more, even though I do spend a lot of time with people that drink I have never seen such people that like to touch you, it’s extremely disturbing!
Even talking to the girls have become extremely challenging, in one of the general gigs I go to a joke will get you in and they will actually have a conversation with if any thing but these stuck up girls seem to laugh at your joke and then turn around! I am a fairly good looking guy eve though I’m on the shorter end of the spectrum. What do I have to do to get there attentions? Dance around to a song that I don’t even like? Or pretend to enjoy it? I have had a few people say to me you look bored and serious. At the hardcore and metal gigs standing there looking serious get to laid! It’s seems that these girls like happy people. After trying to be happy and actually dancing to remixed retro music I still failed! Well I believe I have lost all my chances with Turkish girls unless I get them in a conversation situation. Yes yes the conversation option should be my next step my intelligence has to count for something right?
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Damn didn’t get a chance to take a photo with freddiew coz of the massive crowed of 14 year olds. Did have a short chat with Brandon which was quite cool :). After standing around for an hour and noticing that I’m not going to get to take a photo with Freddie we decided to go on a epic quest to find a arcade in central London, which did prove to be much more difficult than originally anticipated. Just when all hope was lost and the search for the closest tube station had started we walked passed a arcade and with my special ability to notice things I was the first one to suggest it :). After a few hours of killing ninjas and blowing up planes and getting my back side kicked in tekken we decided to call it a night :) I believe this was a successful geek evening.
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I miss her… But I’m not going to call her … How can I call her, she never tried to contact me once after we broke up… She always use to say to me how she would never let me go… How she would stalk me even though we broke up… I guess it was all a lie I guess I was her rebound as she was mine… But how can a rebound mean so much? How?… I miss her like crazy and sometimes I hate her for making me miss her… I know it’s my fault it’s all ways been my fault… I’ll never get her back…
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Getting on one train after another like a really well trained rat, running waiting and running a little more, the only thing I look forward to with this miserable routine is the one in a million advert that actually make me smile or the odd half naked women that will make my heart skip a beat!
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Got my first aid qualification today :) finally have achieved something first time around! The exams were a peace of cake! Hope that real life situations are that easy to :) but I have a feeling that says not to keep my hopes up as its going to get a whole lot harder
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Yes I am listening to power metal and yes I am enjoying it very much! Why am I listening to it? Because I want to run away with my imaginary red head wife to the highest mountains and hunt wild animals with nothing but my hand! I’m going to kill the king of the mountain and wear its skin like a trophy and pin its skull in front of my cave.
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The effects of polyoma virus middle-tumour antigen expression on the subcellular location of Src-kinase family members.
I cant wait to get started with that immuunofluorescence microscope :)
